absolving myself of resolutions

it is christmas. it doesn't feel like it. i am growing up.

at some point during this whole growing up thing, you realize resolutions are crap. at another point you realize you have an incessant need to categorize your life into more easily attainable goals. shortly after that you realize this is also crap. God is in control. i like Him there. the seat was too big for me anyhow. i should, however, mention that at almost twenty-two it is hard not to make lists. so here goes. verbatim, stream of consciousness, new year's b.s. at it's very finest.

1. knit.
2. open a legitimate bank account.
3. talk less. a lot less.
4. listen better. a lot better.
5. smell like lavender.
6. chain myself to a piano.
7. while chained there, learn to play it. well.
8. moisturize.
9. play. preferably with small children.
10. be fiercely protective of my alone time with Jesus.
11. make people laugh.
12. get married.
13. hahaha. joke! made you laugh didn't i?
14. look at me. i've already started.
15. drink more tea.
16. appreciate the fact that i will be measuring my water intake by how many nalgenes i fill up a day.
17. hike and hug sequious as often as the oppurtunity presents itself.
18. absorb the back porch moments of life. both literal and figurative.
19. call my mom every day.
20. sleep.
21. be intentional.
22. be a pure reflection of His love.

well at least it's out there. floating around. ready and waiting to be accomplished. there is much more i hope for. so many things that are so utterly out of my control. i will not despair. i trust that He's got this. even when it doesn't feel like it.

i just realized i am moving in three weeks and i haven't come close to finishing my packing. looks like i'm going to need to start another list.